awkwardisoverrated

I sit here on a chilly Friday night pondering what lies ahead.  The weekend, life in general, NZ in general just humanity in general really LOL.  We are almost in May 2022 and all I can say is how did we get here so quickly.  The years almost halfway done. Anyways onto the topic at hand, healing and what this looks like for me and possibly whoever reads this too.  Healing in my experience has not been linear, it has been high, low and everything in between.  I've come so far yet it feels like at times it's off putting wanting to continue.  Insert regressions, lessons and challenges of it.   Facing into the things that I've just felt were my personality or habits that at the time helped me to survive aren't working for me currently.  I was once the girl that overthought everything, I wouldn't triple think things it would be like Quadruple and then some.  It helped me to prepare for any kind of circumstance that could pop up.  This mo...

Oh hey 2022! Didn't see you in the midst of the continued craziness we are living in.  It's almost February and what a month.  Work started, court and police investigation finished & the healing continues.   I kind of felt the impact of the last 2 years this week, had a mental health day cause I just couldn't deal with people.  Honestly I was running off adrenalin due to the court outcome last Wednesday and I just crashed.  I feel like I'm still in recovery mode but slowly finding my bearings again.  It's been a goodie but really tiring this month.  Ups, downs and everything else in between.   I kind of eased myself into work it helped that it was quiet but I know that as school returns it's about to be really busy.  This also with the added job of training staff into my old role, transitioning into my new one which has pretty much been happening since mid last year anyways.  I also forgot to mention my favourite job of all...