awkwardisoverrated

It has been a good week, better then a lot have been in the past.  I've felt tired physically, mentally but spiritually I really think God continues to undo the bits of me that aren't meant to be there and develop parts that are.  So this week, well last week really I redid my CV, and I'm starting to look for a new job.  I know it's exciting but at the same time really scary.  If you don't know already I've worked in retail for most of my life, and after graduating in 2014 I think it's time to stop making excuses and move to where I think God wants me to be. Easier said then done right? I've been looking tonight but the difference is that instead of in the past where I've been looking out of a need, this time I'm looking already with an income.  It seems simple but to me it shows me that although as childlike as I can be at times I'm maturing.  Instead of making decisions based on my emotions and what everyone else says I'm now looking ...

So it's been the last month that God has been really taking me on a journey of healing and grieving the loss of my mum.  I thank God for how far He has taken my family and I in our journey but to be blunt it won't be done til I see Him face to face when its my time to leave. I'm I'll start with the fact that it's coming up really fast to a year that my Mum left us to be with Jesus next month on the 10th, time has gone by so quickly and it's amazing to think that this time last year my family and I were at one of the lowest points in our lives.  When I look back its really painful to think about how things were then. It's like that time went by like a blur.  We were in the process of getting our parents to be married, as well as take care of her as she prepared to leave and then after that my sisters wedding.  There was a lot going on.  Way more then what we could've imagined I can gladly say that God was there in the middle of it all.  In the fear, anx...