awkwardisoverrated

Been struggling a lot lately with my single status, its a fight to stay content.  Normally I'm happy bout not having a significant other but because it feels like I'm constantly on my own makes it worse.  I had a good conversation with my mum about it cause I was thinking maybe I am a bit too picky, (who isn't) and from that and thinking about it earlier on yesterday I realized that even when potentials come along I can be blinded by my list.  So I'm not going to get rid of it altogether just going to re-think it a bit, obviously there's the non-negotiables like having to be in a relationship with Jesus that demonstrates faith with action and the fact that I want them to push me towards God and not away and being close with their family.  Other than those the list can be rejigged, throughout this wait and my wait for employment I've found myself feeling away from God, but when I do give Him my longings and real with Him I get my peace back.  Its a daily battle e...

So I've been job hunting for feels like ages, and am times have felt discouraged and have wanted to give up but reading so many encouraging posts about waiting whether it be for a relationship, or employment or for hard times to end am learning that joy isn't dependent on circumstance like I use to think but its still being able to smile in the grimy, dirty hardship because of resting in God.  I am learning to be humble by having no control in this season that I'm in actual learning the true reality that my life isn't really my own but God's.  He's molding me into a woman that tries and fights to keep looking to Him despite my circumstance, having no money, no direction (lack of), clarity and nothing is teaching me humility and that all I need is only found in Him!! As frustrating as this season is know that He is faithful and that I'm where I'm at because He knows its the best place for me (alyssa thanks for the reminder) I know that wherever God is goi...