awkwardisoverrated

How do I start? This week has been an interesting week, filled with hard conversations & a greater awareness of me.  Currently at church we are learning about Identity, it's solidified in God through Christ Jesus, but many times in my journey of faith & life we unknowingly tie it to external things. These external things could be school achievements, our family relationships, fitness/health goals, work goals, or even our serving in church.  Don't get me wrong there's nothing wrong with these things, they're great things to have.  How we use them to measure our self worth/value becomes the issue, they're tools not the end goal. In my 30 years of life, in the various season's I've tied my ID and value to all of these things.  As I've been able to reflect when I've done so it's only left me wanting more, or disillusioned with them.  I've been left feeling tired, and not enough when I haven't "measured up".   The lock ...

Its been ages. Like I can't even remember when I last posted.  Funny though cause we've been in the middle of a pandemic and have ample time but sensed it wasn't the right time to write. Seems like I have a conviction to do that today, I've been stubborn as in I've put off writing cause the season has been a challenging one in the wait.  I find it harder to write when I don't have "good content" to write on I chuckled at this.  Cause what is good content, the type that shows movement, speed & tangible outcomes?  cause thats what's preached from society. I'd say I've learnt that the opposite is actually true.  Good content is me showing my struggle & peace currently.  How the wait has turned into a daily battle of me not obsessing over if anythings happening, to exchanging this for Gods peace instead.  It's a challenge.  However.  I've learnt and continue to learn that the more I've leant in and been still, literall...