When God wakes you up

This morning I was woken up early on my day off.  It was annoying in the moment and felt like a zombie driving to the supermarket with my sister.  I really realized after having my fit in my head that my life's not about myself.  As much as I would've enjoyed sleeping in, today just wasn't the day for it as God planned.  It's not like I was getting up early for the sake of early of it I was actually needed.  Then I got this thought that the days we have, our life is what we make it.  We ultimately choose our attitudes for the day and our lives, our job is to simply make the most of what's in our hands and what we're given.  I could've continued sooking in my room trying to squeeze more rest into my morning when I came back, but it's like God didn't want me to after my niece was yelling at the top of her lungs, tapping and crying for attention.  Her mum was on the way out of the door for practicum and her dad has just gotten home from work.  It's not like there was anyone else that could've got her ready.  I was the only one.  It's like through my early wake up call God interrupted my plans for the day.  He spoke to me and continues to speak to me that its' people that matter not my schedule, not my to do list, not the things we have to do each day to function as civil human beings it's people.  Loving them and being there for them in the best way that we can each day instead of running around in my day going through my checklist.  Sometimes that could simply by waking up early for a supermarket run or a text sent to a loved one.  Big or small the acts may be how well we treat others is what matters most in this world.  Right now so many things are pulling at my attention.  But I feel that eventually they will get done, writing this post is what I really need to be doing.  Resting in God's sovereignty by not being anxious about anything giving my cares to them big & small and doing the best in my life moment by moment is the life that God calls me to.  Losing myself and my agenda as inconvenient as it can seem is what God really wants of me. 

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