6 months down & only the rest of our lives to go...

So today marks the 6 month since my mum left us.  6 months on and we are slowly putting our lives back together after our glue left.  It hasn't been the easiest if anything its been the hardest time of all of our lives but I honestly thank God that here on Earth isn't the end.  Like obviously I miss my mum soo much time hasn't made the ache any less or slowed down the tears I've just learned to deal with these as it's gone on.  I credit God for getting me and my family through what would say is straight out of the movies.  I never thought I'd be one of the girls that didn't have her mum at the age of 25 what gives me reassurance is the fact that God knew that my family and I would be.  Not to say that God allowed us to go through the pain that we're facing on purpose He's flipped the script on the enemy and made it turn out for good.  The fact that we can get up every morning and keep going is all credit to Him, every time the girls and Marcus pass an assignment or smash their papers despite the hard times losing mum this year it's like God is really making what was meant for evil good.  Some of my family who had never gone to church before and didn't know God before Mum went now are going to church and know them for themselves because they saw the love God showed through our church family during Mum's proceedings or came to her first Sunday service after passing.  It's like we're all in this massive as jigsaw picture that God is piecing together and Mum's love, life and passing has shown Him to those she was meant to witness to in all of these different ways.  She fully did all she was meant to do while here, and owned every minute of it.  If I had things my way obviously I'd still want my mum here with me but a lot has changed and things that haven't been able to happen while she was here have occurred and even though we have the rest of our lives left to go without our Mum knowing she did all she could and was meant to do while here on Earth gives me faith in a God that sees way beyond what we do.  I love and miss her everyday but I am excited at the FACT that I will see her again when I leave or when Jesus comes back whichever occurs first.  I hope to tell her about everything that's happened while she hasn't been here and I'm definitely looking forwards to hearing about all she's done up there without us.  Yes we have and will continue to have our days where all I wanna do is yell at God for taking my mum and not to me giving her to us for long enough.  For hopefully as our life goes on I own each day and moment I get in memory of my mum and glorifying God for all He has done with our pain and heartbreak and what He will continue to do with it. 

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