Taking back lost ground
This last weekend was busy, extremely busy with our fundraiser ptl we did pretty well and we're one step closer to achieving our financial goal of being able to pay for accommodation & transport for our campuses retreat. Hopefully and believing we can do so much more with the money raised that God multiplies what we make for the people we're bringing.
So this brings me to how the day went, overall it was chaotic, no excuses I'd say it would be an understatement for me to say I was overwhelmed. So many voices and so many people needing me on that day it was hard. Obviously not doing something like this I was in new territory, I've always had the comfort of having someone physically being there to kind of hide behind but I had no option to do this and ptl we got most of our plates sold. As well as the other fundraiser we were doing, totally thankful for the girls I had on the team they were lifesavers as well as an older lady that fully had my back that whole day. Anyways yes with new ground came doubt, fear, insecurity and second guessing myself so many times throughout the day. When I look back I realize my wrongs but ptl instead of being defined by them, and not seeing them as fails I'm going to choose to grow from them. I realized my areas that I'm not gifted in and the areas that I am as well as my areas I need to work on all of this was on the day and in the lead up to the fundraiser.
So onto the next one, which we haven't quite decided on yet, it's crazy cause have felt like I've had barely any room to breathe between them so not doing anything these last couple of days have been refreshing. With anything new especially when it comes to faith, I've realized that as tired as I've been the only one that has kept me going has been God. It's the joy that I find it looking beyond the circumstance and the benefit of why we do what we do that keeps me going even though my feelings tell me I should quit.
No doubt the enemy has tried to attack me so many times throughout it however learning from the mistakes of it as well as being spirit-led and not flesh led I aim to do right by Him and own these next fundraisers with His help! It's all about Jesus at the end of the day, and if He's not in it it's all pointless. Please keep me and my group in prayer, I just feel like with every step we take forward the enemy tries to pull us back. It's to be expected though peoples lives are at stake. I'm more determined now then ever to keep pushing into what God's called for this fundraising and loud south ministry it's not easy but it's going to be worth it in the end.
So this brings me to how the day went, overall it was chaotic, no excuses I'd say it would be an understatement for me to say I was overwhelmed. So many voices and so many people needing me on that day it was hard. Obviously not doing something like this I was in new territory, I've always had the comfort of having someone physically being there to kind of hide behind but I had no option to do this and ptl we got most of our plates sold. As well as the other fundraiser we were doing, totally thankful for the girls I had on the team they were lifesavers as well as an older lady that fully had my back that whole day. Anyways yes with new ground came doubt, fear, insecurity and second guessing myself so many times throughout the day. When I look back I realize my wrongs but ptl instead of being defined by them, and not seeing them as fails I'm going to choose to grow from them. I realized my areas that I'm not gifted in and the areas that I am as well as my areas I need to work on all of this was on the day and in the lead up to the fundraiser.
So onto the next one, which we haven't quite decided on yet, it's crazy cause have felt like I've had barely any room to breathe between them so not doing anything these last couple of days have been refreshing. With anything new especially when it comes to faith, I've realized that as tired as I've been the only one that has kept me going has been God. It's the joy that I find it looking beyond the circumstance and the benefit of why we do what we do that keeps me going even though my feelings tell me I should quit.
No doubt the enemy has tried to attack me so many times throughout it however learning from the mistakes of it as well as being spirit-led and not flesh led I aim to do right by Him and own these next fundraisers with His help! It's all about Jesus at the end of the day, and if He's not in it it's all pointless. Please keep me and my group in prayer, I just feel like with every step we take forward the enemy tries to pull us back. It's to be expected though peoples lives are at stake. I'm more determined now then ever to keep pushing into what God's called for this fundraising and loud south ministry it's not easy but it's going to be worth it in the end.
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