My steps are ordered

This year has been crazy to say the least.  Sometimes I've felt like I've been so on my own and confused about what's gone on.  Especially in the realm of work & relationships.  A lot of stuff has happened, too much for me to all put down on paper.  Relationships have changed and some have been lost as life would have it more like God would have it.  I'm a stubborn person by nature, and as you can tell by my past entries I like to think my life is controlled by me, especially when it comes to love.  Ha ha is all I can say now cause at this point in time, nothing at all is happening in that regard for me and it's funny cause I'm okay with it.  I'll have a bad day when all I want to do is be listened to and hugged, but then those feelings fade once I look back at how much God has done for me and continues to do for me.  Love will come in due time and like Tori Kelly says it'll be worth the wait.  Really determined not to waste anymore time on a person that isn't 1)In love with Jesus and 2) Is spiritually, emotionally, financially and mentally ready for marriage cause that's the end goal.  No more wasting time I've spent too many years on feelings that come and go.  So on another note this post is about how overwhelmed I am at God's goodness & faithfulness toward me, recently my role at work got changed, less hours but Saturdays off praise the lord and which is why I'm mostly happy is that I can help out my family by being able to pick my niece up from school as her dad's hours are changing.  When I look at the timing of it all, I was like maybe this is a coincidence but then today I actually realized that God knew what was about to happen so he ordered all of our steps for our good.  Even my sister who doesn't come to church thinks more about the timing of it as mere coincidence, and if He's faithful in these little things I know that God will give me the job that's going to take me in the direction of fulfilling the dream He's put in my heart.  It's massive, and like in all honestly not something that I would want to do because it's going to take a whole lot of work.  However my life is not my own and as I'm learning I don't live for myself but to glorify God in every work that I do.  A year has passed since I've been in retail, and I struggle a lot with thinking about where I would like to be compared to where I actually am.  I know my God is bigger than our economy and bigger than any financial crisis it may have, He's bigger than my goals and dreams and any achievement or lack of that I have.  Really learning that at the end of the day, being faithful in the role that I'm in at work, at home and in my family I'm in the will of God.  He's definitely challenging my mindset of having the "right career" and money is where I need to be if I'm actually doing His will.  Instead He's teaching me to be faithful in this season that I'm in, knowing that He's making a way and is working on the next one of my life and He's waiting for me there.  I'm meant to be in this season for a reason and I'm determined to learn everything that I can in it cause I know regardless of where the next season of my life it's going to take wisdom from this one to own it too.  My steps are definitely ordered, I just have to trust that God's will and ways are better than my own and holding His hand through my life I would hope when I finally leave this world I'll be hearing well done, good and faithful servant. 

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