The new
It's been a while.
Seasons have changed, and growth is happening rapidly. Changed in my role at work, which is cool it's stretching and growing me (making me uncomfortable a lot). My family have another baby and another on the way in September. I'm at a new church which I love, I'm serving back in church & still working on maintaining and developing friendships.
Prior to my clash with change, I was at a point where I could see a lot happening for others, while I felt like a spectator/cheerleader in it all. It wasn't a bad thing being in this season, buuuuut I did wander when stuff would be changing for me. Baaaam I'm in the season now, I'm embracing it but it is very tiring. Learning how to find that work/life balance the hard way, like I always do :).
Now being 29 I'm fast approaching 30 in just under a year, I can't say that I anticipated being single and not having any children yet still at this point. However I'm learning that this is the season I'm in and like everything else in my life Jesus is adding & taking away the things I need. I'm more confident then I've ever been in my life, embracing change & learning to be kind to myself always. I'm learning to make life about the one, that life is not about the doing or stuff but your experiences & relationships. So many lessons and we only in May yo! can you tell I'm very excited to see whats next.
I anticipate more change, more growth, more living stretching & growing and doing new things. I got a word spoken over me at church a couple of weeks ago that confirmed the decisions that I've made and the journey that has led me to this point I'm at. It's scary cause a lot of what's happened in the last few months I can see God's hand tangibly all over it, which freaks me out, but also makes me excited. It's encouraging to know I'm on the right track! We are finding our flow at work, and family stuff is going how it always has, but my relationships with my siblings growing heaps. I've also learnt that in regards to my family, I can't get my value from them, that's way too much of a burden for them. Also that God loves them more then me, so trusting that He's doing what He needs to do within them in the seasons that they're in.
I went to Colour a couple of months ago, and it was sooooo good, was just nice & refreshing being in an environment as God's girl, no labels, no expectations. My relationship with Laura got restored, and it was just really nice being around my close friends. Staying in a hostel was interesting, which I will re-visit next year too. So many moments, all too long to put on here.
Finally I'd like to say that 3 of my gfs are dating, which is great happy they are and still doing them. I've improved tyj in the fact that I can now talk to a male that I'm hopeful about. After months of waiting, pondering, anxiety about this person growing, we spoke and it was a solid conversation. I'm hoping something comes out of it, but have learnt that getting old Kerri crazy over him and the situation will rob me of my peace. So I'm fighting to stay trusting God with this. It's helpful that I'm busy in the season I'm in, and so is he. No real time to obsess/overthink about it, and when I have those moments I go back to the truth that at the end of the day, I'm loved, valued and have a purpose & a plan for my life with/out someone. I'll be really sad if nothing comes from this, but by the grace of God, I'll pick myself up & keep going. Here's hoping that it's mutual though and something does happen, cause already invested in it (and all the females said Amen).
To end, whatever season you're in, whether it be full of change or quietly cheering others on in your world. Trust that God's in it, how we feel or think about it doesn't remove it from it. Stay the path, embrace the new whatever that looks like in your season and keep moving forward.
God loves you so BIG!
xoxo
Seasons have changed, and growth is happening rapidly. Changed in my role at work, which is cool it's stretching and growing me (making me uncomfortable a lot). My family have another baby and another on the way in September. I'm at a new church which I love, I'm serving back in church & still working on maintaining and developing friendships.
Prior to my clash with change, I was at a point where I could see a lot happening for others, while I felt like a spectator/cheerleader in it all. It wasn't a bad thing being in this season, buuuuut I did wander when stuff would be changing for me. Baaaam I'm in the season now, I'm embracing it but it is very tiring. Learning how to find that work/life balance the hard way, like I always do :).
Now being 29 I'm fast approaching 30 in just under a year, I can't say that I anticipated being single and not having any children yet still at this point. However I'm learning that this is the season I'm in and like everything else in my life Jesus is adding & taking away the things I need. I'm more confident then I've ever been in my life, embracing change & learning to be kind to myself always. I'm learning to make life about the one, that life is not about the doing or stuff but your experiences & relationships. So many lessons and we only in May yo! can you tell I'm very excited to see whats next.
I anticipate more change, more growth, more living stretching & growing and doing new things. I got a word spoken over me at church a couple of weeks ago that confirmed the decisions that I've made and the journey that has led me to this point I'm at. It's scary cause a lot of what's happened in the last few months I can see God's hand tangibly all over it, which freaks me out, but also makes me excited. It's encouraging to know I'm on the right track! We are finding our flow at work, and family stuff is going how it always has, but my relationships with my siblings growing heaps. I've also learnt that in regards to my family, I can't get my value from them, that's way too much of a burden for them. Also that God loves them more then me, so trusting that He's doing what He needs to do within them in the seasons that they're in.
I went to Colour a couple of months ago, and it was sooooo good, was just nice & refreshing being in an environment as God's girl, no labels, no expectations. My relationship with Laura got restored, and it was just really nice being around my close friends. Staying in a hostel was interesting, which I will re-visit next year too. So many moments, all too long to put on here.
Finally I'd like to say that 3 of my gfs are dating, which is great happy they are and still doing them. I've improved tyj in the fact that I can now talk to a male that I'm hopeful about. After months of waiting, pondering, anxiety about this person growing, we spoke and it was a solid conversation. I'm hoping something comes out of it, but have learnt that getting old Kerri crazy over him and the situation will rob me of my peace. So I'm fighting to stay trusting God with this. It's helpful that I'm busy in the season I'm in, and so is he. No real time to obsess/overthink about it, and when I have those moments I go back to the truth that at the end of the day, I'm loved, valued and have a purpose & a plan for my life with/out someone. I'll be really sad if nothing comes from this, but by the grace of God, I'll pick myself up & keep going. Here's hoping that it's mutual though and something does happen, cause already invested in it (and all the females said Amen).
To end, whatever season you're in, whether it be full of change or quietly cheering others on in your world. Trust that God's in it, how we feel or think about it doesn't remove it from it. Stay the path, embrace the new whatever that looks like in your season and keep moving forward.
God loves you so BIG!
xoxo
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