Comparison kills joy
So today was Saturday here and was my rest day apart from helping at a refuge it's not really work I wouldn't consider it work, because I love doing it. I felt full when leaving that place and stirred towards the dream God put on my heart years ago. Every time I leave that place I feel excitement that I actually know that it's what I really want to do and what God has asked me to put my life too.
At this point in my life I work in Retail and am looking for a new job, I do struggle with a lot of regret that I didn't pick another degree where it would've be easier to find work. However what I've found is that if I did it would've been for the wrong reasons for money and prestige. Even in the job hunt now it's a struggle because I find myself being so picky or I just don't have what the job requires. It's okay though because I know that God is working despite the lack of job opportunities. He's so much bigger then what I see or feel, and it's really been a challenge coming to this revelation. In the past I've relied on sight and feelings to drive me to do things God's definitely shifted this and continues to do so in me. I found myself complaining about my job to a colleague and got slapped (metaphorically) because she said at least I had a job (she's losing hers as their store is closing). I can really be a toddler when things aren't going my way and I do think God see's me this way when I have my complaints or fits like any parent I've come across or lived with and being a kid myself we watch them happen and wait for them to grow, learn their lesson in that season and then move on.
Yes I don't like the job I'm in but at least I've got a job and I've learned a lot from it and made some really good relationships at it because of it. It's been a job that has allowed me to be there for my family in a way no other job would've. It has been a blessing and continues to be, but I know that it's time to move on and get out of my comfort zone. The 2 time's I've been at the refuge, I've come alive and I know it's what and where God wants me volunteering although small has reawakened the dream God gave to me that the daily grind of routine put to sleep. I'm determined more then ever to get this thing going and going to be faithful in looking for work that will prepare me for the dream God wants to use me for. I'm pumped so please be praying for me as I look for work, that the job opportunities would prepare me for opening my own refuge.
Please pray for the ladies there too, that they would find their worth and value and become great mum's for their babies!
P.S. I titled the blog comparison kills joy because after being on social media for too long I died from it. I looked at the lives of my friends and coveted what they had was so bad, which is why I blogged to get my focus off of them and put in back on running my race faithfully! encourage you to do so too!
God loves you BIG!
XOX
Kerri
At this point in my life I work in Retail and am looking for a new job, I do struggle with a lot of regret that I didn't pick another degree where it would've be easier to find work. However what I've found is that if I did it would've been for the wrong reasons for money and prestige. Even in the job hunt now it's a struggle because I find myself being so picky or I just don't have what the job requires. It's okay though because I know that God is working despite the lack of job opportunities. He's so much bigger then what I see or feel, and it's really been a challenge coming to this revelation. In the past I've relied on sight and feelings to drive me to do things God's definitely shifted this and continues to do so in me. I found myself complaining about my job to a colleague and got slapped (metaphorically) because she said at least I had a job (she's losing hers as their store is closing). I can really be a toddler when things aren't going my way and I do think God see's me this way when I have my complaints or fits like any parent I've come across or lived with and being a kid myself we watch them happen and wait for them to grow, learn their lesson in that season and then move on.
Yes I don't like the job I'm in but at least I've got a job and I've learned a lot from it and made some really good relationships at it because of it. It's been a job that has allowed me to be there for my family in a way no other job would've. It has been a blessing and continues to be, but I know that it's time to move on and get out of my comfort zone. The 2 time's I've been at the refuge, I've come alive and I know it's what and where God wants me volunteering although small has reawakened the dream God gave to me that the daily grind of routine put to sleep. I'm determined more then ever to get this thing going and going to be faithful in looking for work that will prepare me for the dream God wants to use me for. I'm pumped so please be praying for me as I look for work, that the job opportunities would prepare me for opening my own refuge.
Please pray for the ladies there too, that they would find their worth and value and become great mum's for their babies!
P.S. I titled the blog comparison kills joy because after being on social media for too long I died from it. I looked at the lives of my friends and coveted what they had was so bad, which is why I blogged to get my focus off of them and put in back on running my race faithfully! encourage you to do so too!
God loves you BIG!
XOX
Kerri
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