It's my birthday it's my birthday

Yesterday was my birthday! today was part 2 of it and these last 2 days have been the best ever.  I have been so blessed by my family & friends.  Reflecting on the past year, it's had to have been the hardest year I've had in my life.  So many things have happened hard times especially but with hard stuff came growth! I'm so thankful for the year that has been.  This has been because I've never in my life had a year where I've grown so much.  Early on last year we lost our mum and had to be the first time I've felt heart broken in my life and God has been healing me throughout this whole process.  I've had so many fights with my family and we have had the most difficult times as a family in it.  But with them we've gotten closer as a family.  

So I've become bolder and more at peace with stuff not going right in my world.  Losing mum I lost the security of my world when she went to be with Jesus, I'm thankful I'm going to see her again though so thankful.  When something massive like this happens it can be easy to justify running away from God, it's so much harder staying in Him.  However through the stuff we've learnt as a family as well as individuals God has developed in us a resilience that keeps getting stronger and stronger as our lives go on and not so great stuff comes at us.  I'm so thankful for everyone of my family they are a massive part in making me who I am so although they drive me crazy I would not want anyone else in it.  They are amazing and I love them to death.  This last year being 25 I have grown in my relationships with my family and have had the opportunity to show more grace and love to all of them through the trials we have faced and the victories we have gained.  All the glory fully goes to God for it all, like I would've fallen apart if it wasn't for Him and transforming what was meant for evil into good.

My 25th year of life has also one where I have been the most busiest in my life.  However I've learnt also how to be the most responsible with my time too in it.  When you have less of something you value it a whole lot more.  Less time is spent stressing over the stuff I can't control, and more on changing and developing the things in myself that I can.  Instead of being obsessed about the little things like running a little behind schedule or things not going as planned at a connect group.  I've learnt to turn up do my bit and allow God to do the rest.

I have also learnt to focus on running my race faithfully instead of comparing myself to another's race.  When it is time to leave this place I'm only going to be responsible for what I've done with the stuff that's been given to me by God not what Beyonce is doing.  Looking at another's race is not going to make me go any better because I'm not going to be doing my own race but her's so consequently I'm failing at my own and doing average at Beyonces.  That was an extreme example but I hope you get my drift.

I have in the last few months it's my job to be other's cheerleaders instead of pulling the person down next to me I've come to the realization that we are called to empower others in going after the things of God that's put on their hearts by Him.  

Ultimately these things I've learnt but still continue to learn as I turn 26.  I know that God's got an even more amazing year for me and I'm excited at the prospect of it.  It's a year of firsts.  Just yesterday on my actual birthday I had a full course meal for the first time, today I had a first surprise party with my friends and for the first time next week I'm going on my first girl's trip. I am also going to have my first nephew this year as well as learning how to co-run my CG with another one of my girls last week.  These things are to most of my benefit, but if I've been so blessed in the last year and at the start of this one in my life, I'm so excited and pumped about what God's up to next.

So although I'm aging getting older, I think the saying is true I'm getting wiser and more content in where God has me and is taking me!

It's an exciting place to be!

God loves you BIG! 

Kerri

xox

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The holy work of healing

I sit here on a chilly Friday night pondering what lies ahead.  The weekend, life in general, NZ in general just humanity in general really LOL.  We are almost in May 2022 and all I can say is how did we get here so quickly.  The years almost halfway done. Anyways onto the topic at hand, healing and what this looks like for me and possibly whoever reads this too.  Healing in my experience has not been linear, it has been high, low and everything in between.  I've come so far yet it feels like at times it's off putting wanting to continue.  Insert regressions, lessons and challenges of it.   Facing into the things that I've just felt were my personality or habits that at the time helped me to survive aren't working for me currently.  I was once the girl that overthought everything, I wouldn't triple think things it would be like Quadruple and then some.  It helped me to prepare for any kind of circumstance that could pop up.  This mo...
Read more

the struggle in the wait

Waiting; the action of staying where one is or delaying action until a particular time or event as defined google.  There's loads more but for today's post I'll use this one.  Waiting as a christian takes the pressure off of ourselves and put it on God the reality is in my life I find this to be one of the biggest battles I face daily.  The period of my life I'm in there's pressure coming from everywhere to hurry up and do something.  Whether that be to hurry up and start my career, or the most pronounced one in the church for me is to hurry up and get into a relationship so I can get married and then start a family.  It's a struggle that isn't easy especially when all over social media most people my age are getting married, and having babies.  I hear God whisper that that isn't my story it's there's and in my head I know that's true, it's getting it into my heart where I struggle.  Closer to home my siblings are both having children w...
Read more

When noone listens

So have felt like I've had the busiest last few months ever.   After mum left had a break then was back to helping out with our young adults ministry at church since we decided on our faith goal of 100 people going to retreat its been really busy.  I've felt so angry, frustrated, tired, annoyed (still am now) at the amount of work that's been happening but no one seems to listen to me.  It's frustrating but I know when I step back the 100 people we take represent the 100 potential God encounters that can take place at our retreat.  When I'm tired, and alone and only doing it with a few faithful people and it's getting too much I get reminded of the verse in Galatians 6:9-10 Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary. 10 So then, while we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, and especially to those who are of the household of the faith.  I'm not going to have this opportunity forever, seasons will ch...
Read more