Being good with looking stupid

This past season has been insane.

I've dropped so many things out of obedience to God and some of them had made sense.  Many of them not so much.  I'm that person that really likes doing a million things at once, great in theory, but not so much in real life.

As I've slowed down, I've started to see where my actual convictions lie and the why behind my what.  It has not been the most comfortable journey, if anything, completely opposite to it.  I've had to constantly reflect on moments where my flesh has hurt & I've wanted to just continue to do it my way.  An example of this was yesterday, I was taking my Niue classes last year & I loved them, but this is one of the things I've been asked to put down for a season.  The classes got advertised and instantly I got excited and wanted to enrol, insert Holy spirit saying "But I've told you not to do that".  It's one of the things I've gone back & forth on but as I've begun to let it go, the peace has come.

I've also been catching up with some friends I haven't seen in almost years & it's been interesting seeing the development of these people as well as myself.  It's also had conversations where God has shown me markers that I'm on track.  This is great, and then last night happened.

I caught up with one of my close friends & it left me feeling like I'm doing the wrong thing.  I went to sleep feeling down, but as I woke up this morning I have been reminded (kindly) by God that things are okay and I need to learn to be okay with being misunderstood.

I need to be looking silly when others question my why.  I need to be okay with getting questioned about my why, I need to be alright when people look at me weirdly when I'm not doing/being what I use to be like.  I need to allow God to keep showing Himself true & faithful in the months to come, cause the reality is I have inklings on what it may look like.  It's driving me a little bit insane that I don't have the plan in front of me.

Praying for you if you're in a similar season cause the struggle's real.  God will show up, like He always does.


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