And then it was 2020
So it's 2020!
Can't believe the year has gone and this new one's begun craziness. In amidst all of it, I sense that it's going to be one full of more stretch and change.
Last year was one of the best years yet, hardest but best. Went beyond the shallows in my trust of God again, and decided to go deeper with Him. I'll be really honest, it was sore, and tiring & I wanted to give up 99% of the time. But God, in His kindness & faithfulness continued to show up.
The year of 2019 was a year filled with the new, where God pushed me to trust Him in new ways. I lost relationships, had mindsets shattered and really started to let fear go. A lot of what I perceived as normal & healthy came to light as untrue. What developed through these moments though was a renewed sense of trust in God and His plans for me. It's not easy choosing to keep trusting that His ways the right way in all honesty. It's been a battle of fighting against my own survival mechanisms to allow Him to keep me safe.
Last year I've been stretched to the limits in regards to everything, but praise God I have not broken! This coming year's going to be huge I sense. Recently coming back from a camp, God has continued to pull up dreams and plans He gave me a glimpse of in the years past. I dare to say it's because of Him I'm now in a space where I can be trusted with them.
I'll be honest, I'm very scared but excited about what that looks like. It's going to keep stretching & growing my capacity and that freaks me out. Cause to be honest, I can be guilty of limiting God based on my own ability. I know it's wrong, very wrong BUT I'm trusting that despite this old view, He's going to keep blowing my mind with what's next.
So much happened last year, there's not even enough words to describe the goodness & faithfulness God demonstrated in it. 7 days in, and I'm already continued to be stirred about the needs of my bit of the community. I obviously am going to keep praying about it, and continue to have conversations about those that are also to be involved. Pray for this please!
Finally I've also been stirred to wait, rest and trust in my wait. If you know my journey it's been a fair wait for me to get married. It's been hard, and tiring & I've almost given up because of my flesh and well meaning loved ones. Nevertheless I trust that whatever God has planned for me with said person will happen as we both continue to pursue whole heartedly God and His purposes for our lives.
I'm not saying that's going to be easy, bro the struggle has been real as loved ones offer "options" up cause they're tired of my wait. I get it, I honestly do, it comes from a loving place, I'm 30 this year so they worried. The thing is I'm not, I've learnt that as I've continued to trust God with the small, seemingly insignificant things and He's come through, I can trust Him with the huger things.
I hope this post helps and encourages someone besides me ha! whatever your year is set to look like, my prayer is that you keep pursuing God and Him in the middle of it.
God loves you so BIG!!
xoxo
Can't believe the year has gone and this new one's begun craziness. In amidst all of it, I sense that it's going to be one full of more stretch and change.
Last year was one of the best years yet, hardest but best. Went beyond the shallows in my trust of God again, and decided to go deeper with Him. I'll be really honest, it was sore, and tiring & I wanted to give up 99% of the time. But God, in His kindness & faithfulness continued to show up.
The year of 2019 was a year filled with the new, where God pushed me to trust Him in new ways. I lost relationships, had mindsets shattered and really started to let fear go. A lot of what I perceived as normal & healthy came to light as untrue. What developed through these moments though was a renewed sense of trust in God and His plans for me. It's not easy choosing to keep trusting that His ways the right way in all honesty. It's been a battle of fighting against my own survival mechanisms to allow Him to keep me safe.
Last year I've been stretched to the limits in regards to everything, but praise God I have not broken! This coming year's going to be huge I sense. Recently coming back from a camp, God has continued to pull up dreams and plans He gave me a glimpse of in the years past. I dare to say it's because of Him I'm now in a space where I can be trusted with them.
I'll be honest, I'm very scared but excited about what that looks like. It's going to keep stretching & growing my capacity and that freaks me out. Cause to be honest, I can be guilty of limiting God based on my own ability. I know it's wrong, very wrong BUT I'm trusting that despite this old view, He's going to keep blowing my mind with what's next.
So much happened last year, there's not even enough words to describe the goodness & faithfulness God demonstrated in it. 7 days in, and I'm already continued to be stirred about the needs of my bit of the community. I obviously am going to keep praying about it, and continue to have conversations about those that are also to be involved. Pray for this please!
Finally I've also been stirred to wait, rest and trust in my wait. If you know my journey it's been a fair wait for me to get married. It's been hard, and tiring & I've almost given up because of my flesh and well meaning loved ones. Nevertheless I trust that whatever God has planned for me with said person will happen as we both continue to pursue whole heartedly God and His purposes for our lives.
I'm not saying that's going to be easy, bro the struggle has been real as loved ones offer "options" up cause they're tired of my wait. I get it, I honestly do, it comes from a loving place, I'm 30 this year so they worried. The thing is I'm not, I've learnt that as I've continued to trust God with the small, seemingly insignificant things and He's come through, I can trust Him with the huger things.
I hope this post helps and encourages someone besides me ha! whatever your year is set to look like, my prayer is that you keep pursuing God and Him in the middle of it.
God loves you so BIG!!
xoxo
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