Shaking up the cobwebs

So been reading and watching different messages on being marked & continuing in the faith.  We recently just finished a series on Spiritual formation at church and it was really good.  We are about to jump into a series called Defending the Faith which is going to be about Apologetics and I'm looking forwards to it.  

I have been at my church for 13 months now and it's been challenging to say the least.  A lot of what I perceived about faith and church life has been shaken up.  In a good way of course, its like I fully had to be moved in order to be shaken up in my walk.  The cobwebs of complacency have been and continue to be blown away.  

When I reflect on the work that God continues to do in me, I'm blown away by how quickly He's orchestrated things and He's shown up in different tests and challenges.  I have been humbled, forced to come out of the shadow season (where I had to learn that my value & worth aint in works).  As I've been brought out, I've been more sensitive to the pride in me, and I hate it, so spirit leading am learning to unlearn my need to be seen.  It hasn't been easy, but it has been so helpful in my walk.

I'm so grateful that God continues to put the people around me that I've needed to grow & change.  I'm now learning about the importance of learning to be still, and just be obedient with the next step.  God has wholeheartedly shifted so many of the lies about faith and Him that I've believed for so long.  I'm lately learning about the need to critically take apart things & not just accept things as gospel which has helped me in my faith.  Helping in youth has also forced me to actually get into my word more and intentionally go after God besides my allocated "quiet time".  

This week is our womens conference & I'm excited about what God's going to do, I don't want to turn up half expectant going through the motions.  I'm wanting to fully go after Him & His plans for my life, I don't want to settle because of my flesh.  So as I go into this week, I've determined that I need to really learn to be sensitive to His spirit and to just do.  I tend to allow my brain to get in the way, but I don't want to do that anymore, obviously Godly wisdom is great.  However I don't want to allow my experiences in my faith to lead me but instead His spirit.  

The process of stretching & growing has been uncomfortable but so beneficial in me returning to God and becoming dependent on Him.  I don't know what this week holds, in the wait and this stretch & growth season I'm learning just to turn up & do what He does through me in it.  

I'm excited for what's about to come, and I'm trusting that God has the whole thing worked out.  Also side note, have been struggling with the wait lately.  However God in His ever so kind and gracious way has led me into trusting Him even more with it.  I have to not look at my credentials as a basis point for me getting married.  I just have to trust that whoever He is God will do it on His terms & by His spirit.  

xox

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