frustration


Ever feel like you're where you're meant to be just still feeling wanting??? I'm here at this point in my life...frustrated at the fact that I'm basically doing my dream job, but still not doing what I want to do.

I work in support work in family violence and I really do love my job but I'm really frustrated with the politics that get in the way of doing great work.  If I were to pick one word to describe work it would be frustrated.  Frustrated with the system and frustrated with the people within it.

At the core of why I do what I do, is for people.  Making real differences in the community that don't just impact the individual, but the generations to come.  I get so excited when you see clients making good change because you know it's not just impacting them, but their loved ones too.  I really believe that God has positioned me here for a reason, and I'm looking for an easy way out.  If I'm being completely honest, I've made it about me.  I want to go somewhere that works for me, and going to make me really comfortable in terms of my finances and mind.

It has been super hard coming into work lately, knowing that the good work that we do for people only scratches the surface of what they need.  I get mad, because you know the western way really doesn't work for a lot of our families.  Trying to force these families into cookie cutter shapes that really do nothing for them long term.  Sticking band aids on the real issues.  The way you bring change is not overnight, and it's not an easy journey.

Long term interventions and healing then education on how to do better is what will move mountains in this field.  Instead of focussing on numbers, working for a long time with a client, quality is where the most difference will be made.  I could say these things until I'm blue in the face, but I know even though I leave work angry that I can't do more, but overwhelmed with the amount we are doing.  Ironic in itself, I know I need to focus on what I'm here for and just do it really well.

I wanted to process through this post, and it's helped a bit.  Instead of focussing on my frustration I just need to fix my focus on doing what God has put me here to do.  Please keep us in your prayers, needing wisdom and renewed focus on all that's been happening.

God loves you so big!!

xo

Kerri

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