Reflection, Reflection
It's been so long since I last posted. Life has changed massively and with all it's mountain top moments and challenges God keeps turning up.
I felt the need to reflect on my life because currently am walking through one of the hardest things in my life. My emotion and family drama have recently caused me to lose sight of God in the bigger picture. On Sunday heard a message about living with contrast. Which basically taught on how we live with the good stuff of God while simultaneously living with the hard stuff too. I started my christian walk having the misconception that things were going to get entirely easy when I did. I was so wrong. Have been from those years ago to now. Life hasn't been a walk in the park if anything the challenges of life have kept coming at me. How it would be great if we could all just do life doing and dealing with good stuff only. That's not the way God works though.
Time after time, life has been an ongoing battle. God has stayed constant throughout it though. To those that aren't Christian I'm probably not selling it in the best way. But then I don't think you can package this christian life in a pretty little box. I would not for the world go back to how I was living before getting saved. I was in my mind, free but really upon reflection after the years that have been, was really enslaved to the things of my flesh. I sought after money, prestige and value from people thinking that once I checked all the things on my list I had "made it". Still after getting my version of these things I still felt empty. Long story short after losing my job I found Jesus, sounds real cliche but cliches work because they're true. It wasn't until I came to the end of myself that I decided to do life with God.
It hasn't been the easiest route that I mistakenly thought it would be. With God I've gone through the biggest challenges of my life and continue to do so. I've also had the most triumphs I've ever had in this 27 years of mine. Domestic violence, Abuse and then losing my mum to cancer. Graduation, births of babies in our family, healthy relationships and working in my dream job. Hard stuff and good stuff happening all in the same life. It's real weird because when we think of God, I think as humans we categorize God on the basis of how our world's look. For example a person like a celebrity would deem God as someone good (not all celebrities would). On the opposite end of the spectrum if you're like doing life hard, caught in a cycle of violence and abuse you can view God as bad. These are 2 extreme examples but I hope you get my drift. We define God based on what we have/experienced, we put him into a box not believing that if God existed how could there be so much suffering in the world. How can a God that claims to love us allow Good and bad to co-exist?
I can't say that I have it all worked out if anything I don't, this is why I keep running back to God. My challenges push me to depend on someone bigger then me. My victories keep me praising him, when I have both going on in my world I've found it real difficult to get my head around what to do. I guess what I'm learning that God isn't God based on our circumstances or feelings He's God regardless, never changing, ever faithful and that one constant I have to fall on when everything else in my world seems to be falling apart.
The reality is we live in a fallen world. We're going to have both so much good going on while people are dying elsewhere from starvation and violence. What I'm learning as I'm walking through this season of contrast is that God is still God regardless of what's going on in our world. As I reflect on his faithfulness in my life, and in the lives of others in the bible or in my world it encourages to keep me going. There's no easy fix for what we face as a world or even in our own world's the solution is that God remains when everything else is changing. Sound's so simple on paper but really difficult to apply in real life. It's easy when you're doing it with God though, even though you struggle through the challenges, knowing that you have someone that's gone ahead and is beyond it is freeing.
I'm going through a massive valley and have felt at my lowest in this season but I also just a new job that I love and am passionate about. Wherever you are in this journey called life, if you are a christian or not, I encourage you that despite what your story looks like, it's so much easier with God. I hate the valley that I'm in right now but knowing that the outcome is already sorted by Him eases the burden of it. Also just knowing that here on Earth isn't the be all and end all shifts my perspective too. It will do the same for you too, doing life with Jesus isn't a walk in the park but holding the hand of the one that made that made the park as you do it brings freedom.
So if you want to know Jesus look up online churches, online sermons or if you're bold enough step out tomorrow and go to a church. In light of eternity it will be so worth it!!
God loves you BIG!!
Kerri
xoxo
I felt the need to reflect on my life because currently am walking through one of the hardest things in my life. My emotion and family drama have recently caused me to lose sight of God in the bigger picture. On Sunday heard a message about living with contrast. Which basically taught on how we live with the good stuff of God while simultaneously living with the hard stuff too. I started my christian walk having the misconception that things were going to get entirely easy when I did. I was so wrong. Have been from those years ago to now. Life hasn't been a walk in the park if anything the challenges of life have kept coming at me. How it would be great if we could all just do life doing and dealing with good stuff only. That's not the way God works though.
Time after time, life has been an ongoing battle. God has stayed constant throughout it though. To those that aren't Christian I'm probably not selling it in the best way. But then I don't think you can package this christian life in a pretty little box. I would not for the world go back to how I was living before getting saved. I was in my mind, free but really upon reflection after the years that have been, was really enslaved to the things of my flesh. I sought after money, prestige and value from people thinking that once I checked all the things on my list I had "made it". Still after getting my version of these things I still felt empty. Long story short after losing my job I found Jesus, sounds real cliche but cliches work because they're true. It wasn't until I came to the end of myself that I decided to do life with God.
It hasn't been the easiest route that I mistakenly thought it would be. With God I've gone through the biggest challenges of my life and continue to do so. I've also had the most triumphs I've ever had in this 27 years of mine. Domestic violence, Abuse and then losing my mum to cancer. Graduation, births of babies in our family, healthy relationships and working in my dream job. Hard stuff and good stuff happening all in the same life. It's real weird because when we think of God, I think as humans we categorize God on the basis of how our world's look. For example a person like a celebrity would deem God as someone good (not all celebrities would). On the opposite end of the spectrum if you're like doing life hard, caught in a cycle of violence and abuse you can view God as bad. These are 2 extreme examples but I hope you get my drift. We define God based on what we have/experienced, we put him into a box not believing that if God existed how could there be so much suffering in the world. How can a God that claims to love us allow Good and bad to co-exist?
I can't say that I have it all worked out if anything I don't, this is why I keep running back to God. My challenges push me to depend on someone bigger then me. My victories keep me praising him, when I have both going on in my world I've found it real difficult to get my head around what to do. I guess what I'm learning that God isn't God based on our circumstances or feelings He's God regardless, never changing, ever faithful and that one constant I have to fall on when everything else in my world seems to be falling apart.
The reality is we live in a fallen world. We're going to have both so much good going on while people are dying elsewhere from starvation and violence. What I'm learning as I'm walking through this season of contrast is that God is still God regardless of what's going on in our world. As I reflect on his faithfulness in my life, and in the lives of others in the bible or in my world it encourages to keep me going. There's no easy fix for what we face as a world or even in our own world's the solution is that God remains when everything else is changing. Sound's so simple on paper but really difficult to apply in real life. It's easy when you're doing it with God though, even though you struggle through the challenges, knowing that you have someone that's gone ahead and is beyond it is freeing.
I'm going through a massive valley and have felt at my lowest in this season but I also just a new job that I love and am passionate about. Wherever you are in this journey called life, if you are a christian or not, I encourage you that despite what your story looks like, it's so much easier with God. I hate the valley that I'm in right now but knowing that the outcome is already sorted by Him eases the burden of it. Also just knowing that here on Earth isn't the be all and end all shifts my perspective too. It will do the same for you too, doing life with Jesus isn't a walk in the park but holding the hand of the one that made that made the park as you do it brings freedom.
So if you want to know Jesus look up online churches, online sermons or if you're bold enough step out tomorrow and go to a church. In light of eternity it will be so worth it!!
God loves you BIG!!
Kerri
xoxo
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