Losing control

So this past year has been a busy one.  It's been a year since I graduated! yay however according to my timing it's way past due time me finding a career from my degree! As God as been showing me my life works according to His schedule not mine.  I do struggle with this a lot because I love to plan! I'm a bit OCD but it's only because I like things running smoothly.  As I'm finding though in this last season as I've let go of my controlling ways and surrendered them to God, He has shown Himself faithful every time, every need that I've had it's always been filled by Him.  Works a small example I can use through out the later part of the year I was getting more hours at work, that I didn't really want cause the season was already busy as it was.  However in the moment the week after I had gotten those hours something popped up that the money that I had earned the previous week was needed for.  At the time I didn't really think or thank God for it but it's like through showing Himself as my sole provider without me needing to look for work elsewhere He always gave me what I needed even before I knew I needed it.  What I'm getting at is that for most of my life I like being in the drivers seat however with losing mum earlier this year who fully ran our lives it's like my whole world and my family's has been tipped upside down.  However in it God has been so faithful, provision, love, grace, strength He's given it all in abundance.  Not knowing what the next season looks like simply knowing that God is in control has been a real challenge for me but this massive test of faith in Him is showing me that not being in control of my life is the way I was called to do it.  Cause God's the one that is meant to be in control of it and He has and continues to keep my life going.  I"m going through a journey of trusting God with the massive things in my life and losing mum has shown me that if He can get us through it and come out even better after it gives me faith that He's going to take me where He has designed me for! without me needing to give Him anything but my trust and hope in Him. 

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