Being brave

So its 2015 and its unbelievable to think that 2014s over.  I felt overwhelmed at how hard the year was to be honest but by the grace of God we got through it, and now its a new year and just expectant for things to get better for our family.   Everyones probably doing the same thing by making new years resolutions I know I've made a lot yet to start them though, it'll be next week for the healthy eating one for sure though lol.  One of my main goals this year after reading captivating and listening to Moriah Peters Brave album is to be more trusting of God, actioned out in faith through bravery.  I have for the most part of my life was a timid girl who had major anxiety, I still struggle with it a bit today where I overthought everything the only exclusion was those parts of my life that were part of daily life like meal times and what to eat.  I especially overthought peoples opinions of me and this kept me locked up at home afraid to go anywhere because of what they were thinking of me.  To be honest I'm still like that a lot when it comes to my extended family however its one thing that by relying on God I plan to overcome!! I don't want to be afraid anymore of anything.  I've come to realize that the greatest fear that I've had is in relation to my relationships and I don't want to be afraid anymore of this part of my life.  Actually I don't want to be afraid of anything but we're start with the hard stuff first though which is my relationships.  Whether it be the person looking at me funnily at the shop, or a good looking guy I come across or even those in my family I am going to kick the devil in the face by embracing new and unfamiliar social situations overcoming my old anxious ways out a heart that is confident in my value in God's view of me.  I have to stop talking the talk and actually walk the walk in my faith and that starts with not being fearful of people as well as step out and get out of my comfort zone whatevers shape or form that may take.  I don't want to live my life with any regrets and definitely know for sure that time is short and we don't have that long to impact those around us with Jesus, if I'm to do that I have to make relationships a priority being sincere and loving and PRESENT in every situation I find myself in.  Setting goals is the way I hopefully achieve this and I know as I grow in my dependence on God through letting go of my anxiety and fear I'll be fearless by the end of the year!! I'm determined to be brave this year! cause He makes me brave :) xx

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