So went to church last night! was a really good service took heaps away and I did meet some new girls last night! :) two and it wasn't so hard I think I'm better at connecting with girls actual am quite awks when it comes to talking to guys (especially if I think they're attractive, just being honest LOL) met and chatted to 4 girls and one of our new guys and slowly but surely getting there in building new relationships ptl I did it! happy dance!!!. I'm actually finding that lately a lot more people have been asking about me, and as much as I do like talking about myself (I'm a girl, so you can't really blame me haha) I enjoy hearing about other people and their stories so if you do know me or have seen me around at church or anywhere else next time you see me come up to me, and say hi (I won't bite)  & feel free to go on and on and on and on and on about yourself!!! cause I'm kind of getting tired of hearing my own voice! oooh did realize at times last night that in my conversations I do exaggerate my words with my actions hahahahaha it makes me laugh cause I'm one of the most uncoordinated people in the world & so I did probably look like a weirdo to others around me (care LOL) might be why people part of the reason people always mistake me for 19 or 20 when I'm actually a lot older than that yes I'm very immature (probably won't start acting my age til I'm 30 haha) but yea going back to the point which was yes I wouldn't be me if I just stood there and nodded my head politely (although I do that sometimes cause there are times and places for that like uni, family events etc) owning my weirdness!! I've just realized that this has become another rant and probably my unconscious way of procrastinating over my last assignment so I better get back to it NOW..now.nah really going NOW!! lol so the point of this blog was to say I'm making slow but steady progress with breaking my awkward mindset!! PTL!! thank you for reading! (if you did) xox

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